Blue..

I've been thinking a lot lately..its like a dream and having a nightmare at the same time..there has been a lot of problems that I just couldn't get off my chest because well, I just couldn't. It's not because there is no one there to listen to me, but it just doesn't seem to matter anymore because whatever I say or do, I can't seem to change anything. Everything's gonna go back to square one and all my efforts just seem to be wasted. I just wanna be happy but I guess it's just not gonna happen anytime soon or maybe it will never happen again..I feel so lost and lonely..whichever direction i turn to would put me back to where I started.. I just hope that u would talk to me and tell me what to do because u mean the world to me....